Making it out as a working person with an impairment is no mean feat, more so in a minor society, especially in a country like mine, lacking of adequate human resource management skills, it is no dumb luck to be able to work for your living.
People in a vast section of the Nigerian society today are so desperately invested in the assumption that these with a little difference are a burden to be taken care of that they won't even for a moment give them a chance to prove themselves otherwise to know whether or not they can make it themselves
The only incident that gives them recognition was if they were fortunate enough to be educated or lucky to have been born into a family of wealth and honors,
The majority of us never receive as much recognition as they do in most European countries, because we still live in a society were the people still sees by the old way of doing things and believing
I have tried looking for means to feed myself, trying to make it out myself alone, with the gift of my talent, with the certificates I got from the university, I have tried really tried and if I were fortunate enough to secure a little paying job the effort rendered in any area has never justified the means necessary to function or act as a normal citizen in my country
I am hearing impaired, ever since I was at age six, I have passed through the national education system and have gotten certificates and honors to prove my talent, but yet---
When a person to whom you are convinced has everything more than the requirements needed to secure a job did not meet up with the expectation of the management
What will you ask yourself was the cause?
The true reason may shock you, when you question yourself and discover how far removed from any personal fault it is
In my society being hearing impaired to most folks mean BRAIN IMPAIRED- When I go in search of job they look at me like a man with only half a brain, and they expect me to act like wise, to accept every excuse they brought up to cover the real fact hanging in the air
Today as a writer, am withdrawn from the growing pain suffered by the majority of these people, but when I look in the mirror I can tell that the reflection is happy to be withdrawn, but when I look deeper to the real me, the "I am" of the mind, through these fancy clothes I put on to mask my frailty, the mind of the artist can sense the fear that lies within, Moving along in the street, I'd see these people, the less fortunate in the society, begging for arms, they look like mannequins to me, mouth jerking as if worked by wires, people just like me, people who found themselves in the street, because they have the ill luck of being born like me, "impaired" into a society that does not care
My granny was right when she says "It always take one to know one" is quite true, these who have shared the struggle are these who are best at this, their experience helps them to sense the inner struggle of others and feel them as their own that is what i do best when i write my poems and try to educate people in the net about myself
Why am I writing this article? I am afraid because of the realization that the little voice screaming in my head in some remote and yet conscious part of my mind lay the picture showing me that what happened to these unfortunate people would if given the circumstance will also happen to me.
Why do they reject us ?
In a way it is true that those with minor problems are more often than not a burden to be taken care of, but what makes us what we are depends on our relationship with our space, The environment one lives in engulfs one, I do not mean as a whole but by a particular set of local interest, especially in the government sector and by being accustomed by a particular way of life, When one is defined from outside he find it hard to believe in himself, when the society define the impaired as inferior they feel that way too and with it there is a feeling of growing isolation and detachment they forget and reject own selves, they realize only about half the potential given to them by nature and becomes a burden to those who think they are.
I ask myself more time than I can remember, why does the government try to get ride of beggars in the street when he could not help them, why did they like making the network new or the from page when ever they wanted to offer wheel chair to the disabled, is it wheel chair they need or just a word of love? Why does most families send their ward to special schools, is there a reason to fear the special people? Why? why? why? why?
Yet the proof that we knew what we are doing is before us in the way we hid it, to the governing body these people remind us of our failure to carry out our function to the masses their disability shows us what will happen in a violent society liken ours, they remind us that there exist certain crisis in this life, which neither medicine, science or dancing in the moonlight can solve
Consider a part in a garden, the same soil, the same properties, but the part is a separate part, separate because rain rarely fall within it folds, due to one reason or other As time goes by the crops on that part of the garden grew and continue to grow constantly with the special attention on the gardener part The rainfall is not always constant, it seasons vary, that we knew Everyday the gardener will carry a watering can as he moves along the familiar tracks to water the land that has no rain on it Imagine that part always being treated with all the special attention needed for it own growth, always in a constant state never vary, growing day in or day out with rain or no rain, growing, growing, growing, against all odds I consider a person like myself as that part of the garden on which the rain (sound) rarely falls, our lord Jesus Christ is the gardener, who through people helped us to balance our deficiencies and cope with the limited choices, which God never created us to have in the first place There are people in my life who challenged me to be who I am today without realizing that they are challenging me to, there are some who thought I couldn't make it including myself as the worst culprit and there are a few among a hundreds who believe I can, and gave me hope to cope within the world of silence. Urdeen
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